New Year. New Me.

I have never thought everything will turn out to be so magical.
Not since I received that disappointed midnight text message.
My expectations fell,
my hopes are dashed,
and I have not expected my day to be turn out like this.
There were strong anger at first,
then turn to huge disappointment.
I've tried crying, to let all my disappointment flow, but nothing seems to work.
You shouldn't have break your promises,
and I swore to myself there were no friendship between us anymore.

I picked up my unpleasant feeling and went to Shogun with my family,
Both Lil.Yvonne and I are the birthday girl so we got to dine in for free!
I was really having a fun time there.
Daddy and Mamsie cheered me up, as always.
It's funny how mamsie tried to cheer us up by saying something really sweet,
I tell you, parents are the best.
They will never leave.












Everything turns magical after our lunch,
Alex called. Saying that he'll be back soon.
My party turned out amazingly,
and I had a very great time and it's the first time I countdown for a new year with my friends.
I felt enchanting.
It's a wonderful close-down for my 2011.

Well, let's hope my 2012 will be a marvelous year,
cause I can't wait to dashed off all my resolutions.


Kiss goodbye 2011,
Kiss hello 2012!
Happy New Year peeps! :)

Lady by the Lake

Off her face, she pulls back a thick strand of her hair.
With the sun shining gloriously,
her gaze locked onto the baby-blue sky.
It's a cloudless sunny day but her heart melts like the snow.

It's funny when it comes to love,
you seem elated ; you seem miserable.
The urge for her to leave is strong,
and it cause her almost to stumble on a curb and twist her ankle.
She lost herself somewhere on the way.
She says she could use some help along the way.
So I showed her what it was to cry.



The water around her was peaceful.
and she once saw some baby fish.
She held her chin up high,
just staring blankly at the sky,
and she realised,
she's not alone.
She will never be alone.

When I wake up tomorrow,
everything is going to be fine.
When I wake up tomorrow,
the sun will shines out bright.
I could use some cheering up.
and I miss God.
I miss God.

Rhythm of My Heart ❤

See,see this?

Oh,I can't really sleep for the night!!
I can't describe how joyful I am!!
Credit to Xinchen againnnnn!!! :D
Postscript:Pardon my accent,I've been watching "My Fair Lady" for an hour!!



I'm very suprised that mom actually nodded her head when I asked if I can buy a book I wanted for so long! Thanks mom!! Love love love you BEST!!

Today indeed is a very happy day!!! La la la dee dum~~~
Thank God for everything!!

xoxo,Y☆.

I'm Blessed. ♥

Mind You,it's not a hot bubbles bath that I want.
It's the foam I got from the washing dishes.Gah.
Speaking of washing dishes,
I'm a Pro.(at least I thought so.) :)
I'm being trained by my dad since I was,erm,10 years old?

I've got no idea why I am blogging about being a Pro in washing dishes.
Thunder roars in the evening.
Wind blown.
Rains fell.
The air was cold.
Watching the rain,I'm stuck in my room.
Such a strong storm.
In silence,I prayed that everyone will be safe under the storm.
I was cold,terrified by the loud storm,but can't help feeling blessed to have a shelter and comfy bed to rely on.

Heavy clouds dismissed at late evening.
Windows open.
Fresh Air yet still super cold.

Ignore my messy look.



Thick clouds? No.

I'm blessed. :)

xoxo,Y♥

A Note to God

Have been listening this songs ever since I'm back in hostel.
Love it.

If I wrote a note to God
I would speak what's in my soul
I'd ask for all the hate to be swept away
And for love to overflow

If I wrote a note to God
I'd pour my heart out on each page
I'd ask for wars to end
And for peace to mend this world
I'd say, I'd say, I'd say

Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love cause love is overdue
And it seems like so much is goin' wrong
On this road we're on

If I wrote a note to God
I'd say please help us find our way
End all the bitterness
Put some tenderness in our hearts
And I'd say, I'd say, I'd say

Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love cause love is overdue
And it looks like we haven't got

I'm Blessed. :)

Family

Family is something to do with LOVE.It's a group of people sharing close relationships.
My family is AWESOME!!Daddy,Mamsie,Alex,Yvonne & Me!!♥
We shared memories,fun,ups & downs in our lives.Memories of us are the most cherish-able things my life.

Burger & Fries bought by daddy when I'm having finals,thanks daddy for sending it up to hostel♥

Herbal Tea bought by Mom when I'm having a HUGE ULCER!!! :)


Our Kitchen!

bird's nest stewed by Alex on Mom's Birthday. yummy


I guess that God create parents and siblings for one to help them to go through every ups and downs in their lives.We must cherish the relationships.Love,Y.

Looking Back

Despite a mosquito is flying around me,trying to suck my blood,I'm extremely in a Good mood.

Time flies when you are unaware of it.2nd Sem' results was out this evening.HAHA,that's all I can say for my results.Satisfied?No.Regret?No.I can only laugh about it and shout out "Thanks God."

Looking back,I'm still remember all my books and paper scattered around my study desk;pencils and highlighter busily taking notes on my book;hair all pinned up to be a nerd.I will not said that I hate this kind of life,but I'm kinda missed it.Called me CRAZY!

3rd semester is starting.5 more days to go,I guess I have to start trying to get hold of my pencils,PS: I haven't touch a pen for 13days!!Girl have to get ready. :)Thanks God for everything.I trust in You.Amen!

xoxo,Y ♥

Greatest Fear

Things did get a little bit better today.Besides some tears that I couldn't control of,I'm okay.I'd tried to smiled.I'd tried to talked to others.I'd tried to finished my work.I think I'm quite happy today,can I count it as happy?I don't know.Just like what Ms Selina told me,Happy is a state of mind.It's me who decide whether I can be happy or not.Thanks Ms Selina,but why am I felt that I'm struggling for not let my tears falling down?Why am I doing this?I had wanted to be happy.I don't want to be emo.Why I just couldn't let go of my pains?

Message from God:
On this day of your life, Yvette, we believe God wants you to know ... that what you are most afraid of is where your greatest rewards are.
If all you had to do was wish for something and you would have it, life would be pretty boring, wouldn't it? God placed barriers between us and what we want, so we can enjoy interesting and satisfying lives. God hid our biggest rewards behind the highest barriers - our deepest fears. God wants us to face our fears, and hold ground in their presence, and let them go, and that's how we get out biggest rewards. What are you most afraid of? Say it, just start by saying it.

Is it true?My greatest fears?Am I be going to find out soon?What am I afraid for?Y.

Midnight Fetish ♥

Now is almost three o'clock on Friday morning.I still feel awake.Maybe my hormones started to develop and make me super awake at night but super tired in the morning.I'm sleeping very late these days.I don't really like it.In another way,I like it too.Sometimes I don't even know whether I'm okay like before.I think things more differently compared to before.Is it a good thing?I don't think so.Things for me is just worsen and will not be better.I should learn to accept that.


Yesterday.I had finished my CTS presentation.It was okay,I guess.At least Ms.Winnie said we are okay.At least she smiled.I really ope that my hard work pays.Thanks to myself for lending Sam my ulcer medicine before,now I got it back.I was so happy.Well,there is really 好心好報 in this world.A big clap for myself.

Will be going back later.Hope that can draw more closer to Him and family.Mom's birthday is on the 31th.I still haven't bought anything.What a disobedient daughter.Will be plan something tonight.

Gonna sleeps now.Girl have to sleep *early*.Y♥.

xoxo.

✿TORN✿

I became very random these day...thanks to YY for this big gift...and I had found that I hate it.I hate myself for being random.I couldn't make a firm decision for a small incident.Ashamed and hate more of myself,guess what happen: I LMAO and in the end I will CMAO!!I'm so random these days and I am making super stupid decision these days...I had wanted to go on.I had wanted to stay strong.I had wanted to get over it sometimes.I had wanted this,I had wanted that.In the end things just went wrong.Totally wrong.I still the old-me.A failure.I had promised myself that no more tears are going to rolled down my cheeks,I had wanted.I'm lost,very lost.I couldn't found where am I.



To friends,Im sorry to abandon you all sometimes.I had not wanted them to happen.Trust me.Sometimes I just couldn't get hold myself from being passive.I apologize if I'd hurt someone who at least care.Please do forgive me.

To you,I really don't know what to say about you.Sometimes I hope that you can get the hell out of my life.Other times,I think we could be friends.Real friends.No furthermore relationships package.I am very frust upon you sometimes.Sorry that I keep reject you.I just don't feel like accepting.Do forgive me also,I apologize for my random behavior towards you.

To my special family,there is the superb 3 words and 8 alphabet for four of you: I LOVE　YOU .I really do thank God for you all.Alex,thanks for your accompany this hols,I cherished it so much,thanks for remind me that I have to scored well although it's my no-big-deal midterm.Thanks for taking us out,do we looked like a super annoying twins sister to you??I hope not.Thanks for your change.Thanks for singing "Elmo's songs" for me when I 'm down and requested from you.Just like old times,I love you and love every minute of your attention.Yvonne,I think I said I love you a thousand times everyday,and you are the most precious sista that I cherished the most.I do care about you and keep in mind that no matter what you had done bad to me, I will still and always forgive you.I know the world is super Big and the roads are steep,but hands in hands,we have no fear right??just like we had promised: We will success when we had each other!Daddy,I always thought,will you sing "Cinderella" on my wedding day??Will you do that for me??I like to think that you will.Did you know something about me that my prince don't??Are you glad to have a daughter like me??I knew I failed you many times,but are you still,like I have hope,felt proud of me??I'm your least favorite but are you sometimes felt glad to have me??I did cared you know although I swore to myself that I don't care.I just want you to know I'm proud to have you in my life,as my dad.Mamsie,thanks for knowing how I felt every-time I'm down.Thanks for taking my hand and didn't gave up on me always.Thanks for your trust towards me though it hurts you much.You know I will make it through right??Whenever you are by my side I will find in defend for myself.You are everything to me.I just can't live without you.

This is how I felt,with nothing's fine,I'm torn.Y♥.

Under the spell of "****"

Excited and lively are not the two words that could describe my feelings when I am "***ing"……haha...I'm not goin' to tell you that……^ ^ Lots and lots of status you could write and enjoy reading other's.OMG,am really under the STRONG spell of IT.

　　By the way,results had came out yesterday.Guess what?I pass all of 'em.I couldn't be more happier!!Haha...I couldn't believe I had actually for the LURVE of God PASS my finite maths!!Mom mumbled: Thanks God! haha...my feelings had gone up high high and higher!!

It's seems to rain unstopped this few days.I hate Rainy day.I always do.It get all sticky+wet because of it.I really hate that feeling!!

　　　　　　　

　　Next Monday will start my second semester...Funs off!!haha...Things had change lots...Hope for the best.Girl deserve a good semester.Y.♥

The Game is still on...

I totally+badly wanted all my work to become a fun game,that I can play with and relax when I "play" it...


such as dressing up a barbie doll??

I want things and work to become easy peasy...College life sometimes is too "real" for dreaming girl like me,and the exams and quizzes is DAMN HARD!!It drives me nuts sometimes,and fed up...

From now on,I want to study hard!!(how many times did I promise that??LOL)Goodbye Failure,Hello Success!! I wanna treat study as one of my easy as cracking an egg game!!Play with it,work with it,do it all with my heart!!I don't want to retake my courses!(Like I can take control of it...)I have to quit fbk and other stuff!!Say Hi to all my crazy thick text book+worksheet...

Sad but true,the 1st semester is coming to an end.Shocking...I didn't realize that...It seems like the orientation day was just happen the weeks before!!March-intake student are starting off their classes today...how I wish I can turn back the clock,I'm a SEMI-senior now...keep telling myself that we're on the same age and we are their SENIORS...

Maths Quiz tomorrow...hope this time I can perform well...For the love of God,dear all lecturers,make the quiz simple and short okay??

Okay,done here.Girl have to stuck on her study desk's chair and swallow all her maths questions.CP Assignment still coming up...OMG...Girl has to turn off her PC now...good catching up...XOXO♥

"My work is a game, a very serious game."
M. C. Escher
Dutch artist (1898 - 1972)

Called Me A CRYING BABY+LOSER...

Moody,moody+moody……
Felt alone and stupid sometimes...life in college really exhaustic...sometimes felt like suffocating,struggling for breath...sometimes it's not fun as I thought...Girl like me are made by tears...after crying non-stop for hours,still felt like commit suicide...then will stare blankly at the wall,then fresh tears will stream down my cheeks from my stupid eyes again...sometimes I just wanna to hide under the cover and make the bad things all go away...I want to cuddle up to the corner of my bed and cry to death...but I always found that I'm still alive...(ridiculous,huh?)

Keep telling myself,FAILED is not the end of the world...but when I think of it,I will looked death and my nose started to run again...I have no confidence when come to academic...although I get 6A3B for my SPM (mom said I should proud of my results,keep telling me to be more confidence),I felt like I'm not good enough...I'm an ungrateful child...always have daddy+mommy to worried 'bout me...I hate myself for being not smart enough (unlike brother+y.sister)...I felt terrible...horrible...stupid...

After calling my mommy,tears was not fully controlled now...she didn't urged me to study,she just used her most calm voice to give me courages,told me not to give up,asked me to study hard, "You can do this Yvette,when you do it with FULL-HEART."...her voice,ever so touching and light...Felt like making my pillow flood again...

I don't wanna to be like this...I can't help myself...I can't seems to take it anymore,called me CRYING BABY+LOSER.Girl have to work hard and be confidence.Y.♥

REBORN...

True to the words,my blog has reborn. Not to said the words 'Reborn'(its not that I didn't sign in my blogger for(God's know)how long!), it is just a new leaf has born.I changed every OUTER,but not the INNER.(The inner part of me will never change!)Just wanna change my new habit,I'm going to start posting blogs As Much As Possible...(Promises,as always...gee)

Talk about promises,some people always gave out their promise to their friends and family,it's kinda cool to give promises like 'I swear',but it so NOT-COOL when you broke off your promises!!I am not judging anyone,not practically judging,but sometimes it's irritating when excuses were given by them for thousands,millions,zillions times...speak of which,am going to see her in a weeks time...(duh!Stop me.Speaking of judging people...)

Time do flies...am going back to the HR tomorrow...another one week time I had to wait to come back home again...hate being away from home...

What can I say?? Girl had to be independent.Y.♥