The Game is still on...

I totally+badly wanted all my work to become a fun game,that I can play with and relax when I "play" it...


such as dressing up a barbie doll??

I want things and work to become easy peasy...College life sometimes is too "real" for dreaming girl like me,and the exams and quizzes is DAMN HARD!!It drives me nuts sometimes,and fed up...

From now on,I want to study hard!!(how many times did I promise that??LOL)Goodbye Failure,Hello Success!! I wanna treat study as one of my easy as cracking an egg game!!Play with it,work with it,do it all with my heart!!I don't want to retake my courses!(Like I can take control of it...)I have to quit fbk and other stuff!!Say Hi to all my crazy thick text book+worksheet...

Sad but true,the 1st semester is coming to an end.Shocking...I didn't realize that...It seems like the orientation day was just happen the weeks before!!March-intake student are starting off their classes today...how I wish I can turn back the clock,I'm a SEMI-senior now...keep telling myself that we're on the same age and we are their SENIORS...

Maths Quiz tomorrow...hope this time I can perform well...For the love of God,dear all lecturers,make the quiz simple and short okay??

Okay,done here.Girl have to stuck on her study desk's chair and swallow all her maths questions.CP Assignment still coming up...OMG...Girl has to turn off her PC now...good catching up...XOXO♥

"My work is a game, a very serious game."
M. C. Escher
Dutch artist (1898 - 1972)

Called Me A CRYING BABY+LOSER...

Moody,moody+moody……
Felt alone and stupid sometimes...life in college really exhaustic...sometimes felt like suffocating,struggling for breath...sometimes it's not fun as I thought...Girl like me are made by tears...after crying non-stop for hours,still felt like commit suicide...then will stare blankly at the wall,then fresh tears will stream down my cheeks from my stupid eyes again...sometimes I just wanna to hide under the cover and make the bad things all go away...I want to cuddle up to the corner of my bed and cry to death...but I always found that I'm still alive...(ridiculous,huh?)

Keep telling myself,FAILED is not the end of the world...but when I think of it,I will looked death and my nose started to run again...I have no confidence when come to academic...although I get 6A3B for my SPM (mom said I should proud of my results,keep telling me to be more confidence),I felt like I'm not good enough...I'm an ungrateful child...always have daddy+mommy to worried 'bout me...I hate myself for being not smart enough (unlike brother+y.sister)...I felt terrible...horrible...stupid...

After calling my mommy,tears was not fully controlled now...she didn't urged me to study,she just used her most calm voice to give me courages,told me not to give up,asked me to study hard, "You can do this Yvette,when you do it with FULL-HEART."...her voice,ever so touching and light...Felt like making my pillow flood again...

I don't wanna to be like this...I can't help myself...I can't seems to take it anymore,called me CRYING BABY+LOSER.Girl have to work hard and be confidence.Y.♥

Addicted

Yummy~~

so creamy~~

yoohoo~~

My Pretty Cup~~
I'm becoming a MUSHROOM SOUP-ADDICTS lately...really feel very weird...but it taste so YUMMY!!Haha...Thanks Kerly for remind me inside got lots of MSG!!Blek...
This week I'm really in a BAD mood...scare of SPM results...but now I knew my results,felt relieved and WOW...thanks to all my teachers and my 2 private tuition tutors,I LOVE YOU GUYS!!♥

Well,looking forward to this SUNDAY!! Can go out and eat with Daddy Mamsie...so FUN!!
Busy week ahead!!Have to work hard!!
Girl have to be strong.Y.♥

REBORN...

True to the words,my blog has reborn. Not to said the words 'Reborn'(its not that I didn't sign in my blogger for(God's know)how long!), it is just a new leaf has born.I changed every OUTER,but not the INNER.(The inner part of me will never change!)Just wanna change my new habit,I'm going to start posting blogs As Much As Possible...(Promises,as always...gee)

Talk about promises,some people always gave out their promise to their friends and family,it's kinda cool to give promises like 'I swear',but it so NOT-COOL when you broke off your promises!!I am not judging anyone,not practically judging,but sometimes it's irritating when excuses were given by them for thousands,millions,zillions times...speak of which,am going to see her in a weeks time...(duh!Stop me.Speaking of judging people...)

Time do flies...am going back to the HR tomorrow...another one week time I had to wait to come back home again...hate being away from home...

What can I say?? Girl had to be independent.Y.♥