Life of a mess of a Dreamer.

Some time ago I was tempted by myself to close down this little blog of mine.
But part of me inside is not willing.
I wrote out my life and all the physical sensation I felt inside me,
seriously praying that no one is to plagiarize my pieces.
However,for the shades of grey I am feeling right now after reading my past blog post,
it is certainly not and never is my intention to emofied myself or my readers.
(Of course, if there are any readers)

I felt bad enough if my blog has ever made someone sad, I apologized.
It might not be a wise decision to close down my blog,
knowing that some of my friends might still be interested in reading it.

Way back to last week,
I had my very best day with my bunch of friends and my lovely sister on Thursday.
Lil.Yvonne and I are so excited about the Genting Highland trip and few's birthday celebrations,
though there is some issues arose with the new room-mate.
In the end the bunch of us managed only to have fun on two themed-park games,
which is the Merry-go-round(I forced them to take it with me) and The Flying Elephant(This I did not forced them) due to heavy mist and rain,
we did enjoyed much though.








Dinner at the famous steamboat restaurant with all eight of them was indeed very pleasant and delightful,
and I have someone to send me back to Sierramas!
That day was a magical day.








Mamsie is going to Thailand for a few days.
My, how am I going to survive?
I still have a little sister to feed to.
I missed her already,
like a child misses her blanket.
She kept sharing her cooking tips to me,
but I swore to her I was fine.
Well, we will see.
A little bit of malnutrition in me for a few days won't be a biggie, I guess?

Right now,
I wish there is someone who can lift my feet off the ground and sing me a song.
Y.

The Weather,the Sky,the Daily Routine

I'm pretty upset with the weather these days.
It's raining everyday and everywhere!
with the humidity running low outside,
I can't even take a walk or picking up flowers at the park.
besides the uncomfortable misty drops,
the vampires're coming back too,leaving itchy scars all over me.
Somehow I felt lucky I've not been bitten on the neck. (Too much Vampire's Diaries,I guess)



Been staying home lately after the ever-exhausting exams,
Frankly,there's never a competition between home and HR.
It felt so good to be with Lil.Yvonne again,
A Girls-outing on Monday was indeed very pleasant,
and I can't wait for our next outing again!
After all those tiring working days,
Oh,sometimes girls just wanna have fun! :)

I found my own sweet time relaxing on mom's bedroom coach,reading my book,
with warm beams of sunlight shines through the window,
No interruptions here,laying there undisturbed.
I'm at peace.





and I can't help but hoping and praying that I will be that peaceful for the rest of my life.
Y.

You'll think of me.

Slowly, you embraced me.
With your strong arms as I paced forward.
I hold on my breath,
tried really hard not to picture you waving goodbye at me.
It was a quick hug,
short and simple,
safe and secure.
You made us think that you are worth the while,
for us to wait for the day you return.

To you, everything is beautiful.
You have no reason to be sad.
You seems cheerful everyday,
though there have been tough days.
Time seems to slow down whenever you're around.
Oh, how I wish you could stay longer,


same place,same target.

Saturday night,
Stood there and watched you gone sitting on the passenger side.
You seems to keep your emotions perfectly under control.
I can see your unwillingness,
It's written all over your face.
I looked away as you waved at us,
pretended to be caught on something,
blame it on my emotions inside,
I couldn't bring myself to meet your eyes,
I don't wanna break down,
I don't wanna to have this weird feeling.
In fact I felt a whole lot better when I turn myself away,
knowing that you will think of me when your're not with us.
I should never say goodbye because:
"Never say goodbye
because goodbye means going away
and going away means forgetting." - Peter pan


Well,
we will be alright if you were wondering.
Lonely is the word to describe Christmas without you,
When we were putting up the decoration for the Christmas tree every year,
it's sad to notice one less pair of hands.


The day before when you were coming back.

But I know you are coming back soon,
hopefully for 3 weeks in next January.
I promise I will buy you some gifts for your birthday this year.
If only you are here with us for Christmas.
I will give up everything,
if we could travel back the time when we were still in primary school.
but it's never possible.

so please,
do me a favor,
Don't grow further and further,
just try to stay the same.
Y.

Sweet August.

Clear crystal water drops,
hitting hard on the window,
making some sort of rhythm I couldn't hum,
cold fresh air sneaked in through the open window,
Sometimes we just love rainy days,
although weather usually made things worst.

I'm learning to play "Back To December" by Taylor Swift,
It's been awhile since I touched my piano,
but there's no turning back,
I'm gonna pick up my piano skills again from now on,
musics soothed everyone,
so do me,
it's about time,
practices are required.

Btw,I went swimming with Mamsie and Lil.Yvonne yesterday night.
Flashing back to those memories I once knew,
from learning how to swim from a coach when I was a lil girl,
to playing jaws with daddy in the deep blue pool I once feared.
I couldn't help but smiling when the moment I jumped into the pool.
The feeling was crazy and awesome,
with water surrounded me up to my neck-length.
I can still remember the swimming movement and styles.
but it's really tiring after I stopped for so many years.
More practices too,eh?

I was curious sometimes,
about the feeling of skinny dipping in the middle of the sea,
and my hair flying and dancing around with the warm ocean-breeze.
Let's hope there's no sharks!
well,some of my friend told me that there're no sharks in M'sia.
but I don't think I will swim in M'sia's ocean in my whole entire life also.

My weekends almost end,
that means time to return to college, *sigh*
Alex's returning from his mission next thursday,
at least I have something to keep me alive and expecting. :D
xoxo,Y.

Chanson De Toile

Another Thursday, another day to fade,
I'm so so glad that tomorrow is Friday,
so that I can finally inhale some fresh air and relax.
The air in the city here is exhausting,complicating and suffocating.
unlike the sweet scent of fresh-cut grass back at home.

and finally,
new clothing for my nails after being naked for a long time. :D
not really pro at painting them tho.

Guess what?
I realized that I can actually sign up to play a role as a female vampire.
Saw my sharp teeth?


Teehee.
Alright, time to get serious.
Back to haunting down some food since I heard thunder striking.
xxoxo,Y.

MisUnderstood.My.Mood.

Has Autumn gone yet?
If I'm in Europe countries now,I surely will miss the red leaves and cold breeze of the wind.
Will the wind make my cheek turn pink?
Will I get a cold?

Daddy and Mommy cheer me up tonight.
I guess I got a strong boost from them now,to be happy.
Nothing is gonna change my mood from now on.How I Wish.
I hate when my mood swings.
I lose control every single time.

Can't wait to be home on Saturday.
I miss them.All of them.
and I knew that I shouldn't be "obsessed" by Alexa Chung all the time.

and...Malaysian Studies quiz made me gone wild.
xoxo,Y♥.

♡ Jealousy,Oppsss... ♡

OK,I admit.My jealous streak is showing.

Someone's throwing a party tomorrow,I guess it's a big one,for her "sexy 18",and L.Yvonne got the invitation to it and I'm not.How cruel. :(
Just imagine people dressing up,dancing around,sipping champagne and fool around.
Oh my,I'm really getting jealous.

Instead of enjoying the party,I guess I will just slip into my jacket and head for the theater,and be a good daddy-girl.♡
Watching movie with my dad,who said my dad isn't cool?


Going back home made me think more clearly.
I found where I belong to.
Family & Home is where you can found back your fairytale and dreams.
Sugar Plum fairies,Glister Crown Princesses,but not Prince Charming.
Well,I guess I just have to pull away my worries. :) and
Home Sweet Home.Y ♥

Ain't not Daddy Like My Daddy !! :)

9th September 2010

Today is suppose to be a holiday.It's Raya Day.Classes still on in college which other colleges are on holidays.So unfair. :(
Having class at 8.Waking up at 7:08.I blamed L.Yv for not waking me up.She just shrugged and says: "Oh,I don't know that Ur class starts on 8.Usually you are still sleeping when I woke up."

I was totally blur when I reached my sit in Marketing class.I was in a deep sleeping mode until Ms Renee raised up her voice to kept us awake.Bah.

Brunch was superb!
Updated with Annabelle in Subway.Serious,we bumped into each other and I asked her to join me.We ended up talking so much that we don't want to leave Subway.
BTW,Subway made me smell like bread and coffee!! :(
Had Malaysian studies class after that.
Walked Jiachee back to hostel.

After daddy and mamsie fetching us,we went to Mid Valley.Have a heart-to-heart talk with mamsie in esquire kitchen.I found out that I'd grew older and more mature this year compared to last year.I'm glad.

Wanting to watch movie,we went for piranha.But we couldn't get a sit.So,we gone for Grown Ups.Wow,I love Adam Sandler man!He is the Hottest dad in US!Or maybe not,I should said Rufus Humphrey(Matthew Seetle) instead, Or maybe Ben Affleck? :)

Sushi afterward.


Then Home.
I was so tired I fell asleep and left the light on until mom came in on 1am and switch it off.She even on the fan for us.Oh,My,how I missed being pampered by Mommy.
Girl have fun today,Do ya? :)

10th September 2010

Book Fest fever is in KLCC,AGAIN!!Yeepeeeeey!! :)
I could still remember this early week,my friends all went there,WITHOUT ME!!Sad.I know I'm the one who rejected y'all,but sorry,I'm busy at that time. :)Always,the excuses.Ha-ha.

Good old dad,he LOVES us.He brought us to Suria this morning.Have breakfast in there.Superb yet crowded.
After that,dad bought us the entry tickets and we went in.Mom went shopping somewhere in the high-class shopping center,holding dad's credit cards.Ain't not daddy like my daddy!! Daddy is the BEST!!♥

Then,the frustrating part came.
Stucking in middle of nowhere in the super crowded book fest.I hate it!! *sobs*
People push and I push back.
Baskets slammed on my feet;Corner of someone's book clashing into my arms;Human stepping on each others foot,etc etc
Seriously,it's pain!!
Okay,I admit,I did gave a few people "tsk tsk" sound and irritated look but my head was spinning like crazy when I'm inside.And I especially hate someone's arm brushing against my arm!!Unless,a hot guy,maybe?
It's so ewwwwwww!!!
Well,maybe it wasn't that bad to stuck in here.
I bought two books.LOVE LOVE LOVE!! My LOVE is in the air now. :)
Trading Up & One Fifth Avenue!!





I love my books so so much!! Lunch at KFC on our way back.
Serious? Mom's at KFC!!
PS: Mom bought lots of stuff and she don't want me to know what have she bought.I wonder what would them be.But,I know that one of 'em is a huge black-golden handbag!Wonder how much it costs...Hmmmm...

Having fun today,what about y'all? (ignore my previous similar line,now I'm really asking you.) :)

xoxo,Y♥

Family

Family is something to do with LOVE.It's a group of people sharing close relationships.
My family is AWESOME!!Daddy,Mamsie,Alex,Yvonne & Me!!♥
We shared memories,fun,ups & downs in our lives.Memories of us are the most cherish-able things my life.

Burger & Fries bought by daddy when I'm having finals,thanks daddy for sending it up to hostel♥

Herbal Tea bought by Mom when I'm having a HUGE ULCER!!! :)


Our Kitchen!

bird's nest stewed by Alex on Mom's Birthday. yummy


I guess that God create parents and siblings for one to help them to go through every ups and downs in their lives.We must cherish the relationships.Love,Y.

Looking Back

Despite a mosquito is flying around me,trying to suck my blood,I'm extremely in a Good mood.

Time flies when you are unaware of it.2nd Sem' results was out this evening.HAHA,that's all I can say for my results.Satisfied?No.Regret?No.I can only laugh about it and shout out "Thanks God."

Looking back,I'm still remember all my books and paper scattered around my study desk;pencils and highlighter busily taking notes on my book;hair all pinned up to be a nerd.I will not said that I hate this kind of life,but I'm kinda missed it.Called me CRAZY!

3rd semester is starting.5 more days to go,I guess I have to start trying to get hold of my pencils,PS: I haven't touch a pen for 13days!!Girl have to get ready. :)Thanks God for everything.I trust in You.Amen!

xoxo,Y ♥

Blame It On My Busy Schedule ♥

I am So So So gonna update my blog soon.Sooner but Later.Too much of outing sometimes will ruin my plan aka be a nerd= read lots of books and magazines.I have to estimate myself.Went out almost every day after final,Dad's aggressive towards sending us for breakfast,I guess that mom doesn't have to worried about me not having breakfast.Have plans for many other days...Guess I have to fully charge myself.♥ Girl have to stay stronger enough to go out...