Close to Tears

I found myself today.With everything around me falling apart,I'm longed for escaping.But something is pulling me back,I've no idea what is it.Fun seemed to vanished from the wild side of my little heart.I think that it is the time for me remembered who I'm really are.

True,I'm not my wallet,my career,my luxuries.I'm not the labels other people give me.I'm me.The pure Yvette I'm used to be.Good actors sometimes forget who they really are.It's time for me to remember that I'm a being of immense power and breathtaking beauty created in the image of God.♥

A part of me is bleeding;another part of me is healing.I always think that I can make through every challenge in my life.Sad but true,I'm close to failure every time.I hide underneath my blanket and enjoy the softness of it,then hug myself to sleep everyday.Sometimes it helps with my swinging mood,but other time I felt I'm a useless creature.

My peace fate is fading...and I had tried to hold them back.Y.

感情綫 ♥

夜深了。
聆聽著自己的心，有些感觸。
人與人之間的感情很奇妙。
有時能像親兄弟姐妹，談個天昏地暗；
有時卻像最熟悉不過的陌生人，自己朝自己的夢想前進。
感嘆的是，
人與人之間，能相識，也算有緣。
記得媽媽說過，有緣，一輩子甭想逃過。
可是我覺得又是感情，無論是親情友情愛情，
都是要靠自己去維繫。

我好象每天都在維繫著。
有時給自己加油；有時累得想放棄。
或許儅那個人不在乎，我就沒有哪個繼續的勇氣了。

人與人之間的感情綫，會維繫多長呢？
經不起風寒的柔綫，斷了，能補回去嗎？
就像被感情破碎了的心♥，還會好起來嗎？

Faith♥

My very own mood is swinging lately.I can't tell others my feelings.Probably happy,gray,blue,lust,maybe?craving for something?Maybe cheerful on the face but black inside?

From a shiny bright mood turned into black harden shape,just as you are drew far and far from me.Can't you see I'm trying hard to hide my pain?I had tried to ignore our problem.Don't you know that?Why did you give me the feeling that you don't care?You surely will denied whenever I talk about it.Do you really want me to get over it?Maybe I shouldn't have cared so much since you don't care.

Got back my accounting midterm marks today.I hate it.The red marks made me felt useless.63/83.Sucks.I'm sorry Yu Xiang,I think I've failed you.I'm blur like you always said.and I'm not as good as you think.I'm careless as usual.I don't really deserve an A for my SPM.I'm a failure.Don't get disappointed over me okay.

Message from Him said that letting go will make me wealthier and I must have faith inside me.I felt that actually I'm blessed for everything I had.I shouldn't have complained so much.Y.

♥Dinner at 5-stars restaurant

Weekends without Alex is kinda bored.He missed the great dinner at a five-stars restaurant on Saturday.Thanks to uncle Lim and Miss BK for treating us.The so-called brothers-and-sisters with my parents.Love five-stars so MUUCCHYYY!!!

　　　　　　　　　　Dad said I could take the revenge for Holland+Germany~♥
　　　　　　　　　　　　　
Love my dinner dress~♥

Cam-whoring with Y~♥




The dinner was super grateful.Although I have to sit with a doctor,but still,it did not change my mood.Thanks daddy for the big prawn and fish...love you...Good mood this week because Alex is coming back~yoohoo...cheers♥.Y.

Stay out of my life

In the middle of the night is always the time that my heart went fragile and true.One can tell lies to another.They cover themselves from people.But when the time they have to face themselves,sad but true,they just can't cheat their hearts off.


There are some secrets and pains you can only keep it inside you.Not for sharing.If you are strong enough,you can be able to come out of it;but if you are real loser,you will suffer and hurt yourself.I think I am one of the loser.Congrats to me??All suffers and pains I can only shift it to my left shoulder if it's really hurt on my right shoulder.and Vice versa,and repeat,and repeat.I'm tired.Give me a break sometime.I need strength that I never had before.A real strong strength that can pull me out of my depressed life.

In my world,as my making of movie,there are a lot of people who I can't label them "friends".You are just merely a little part of my life.I am just not into you.I won't change myself because of you.If you are not qualified to be my friend,my curtain are closing.Just get out of my life.I am only human.I need some respect and also consideration.Don't cross over my limit.I would not waste my time to play the game with you.The conversation has dried.I am not concerned with your liking or disliking me.All I ask is that you respect me as a human being.Please,im begging you now,stay out of my life!

♥Mission Impossible♥

I think I heard the thunder outside the window...is it going to rain??Hope not,because Alex is still on the plane...Dear Father Lord,please Bless him will have a safe and happy journey on the plane.

I am now resting aka writing my bloggie~♥ had been buried my head in the sea of acc format and questions...The words are driving me crazy...I hate myself these days for being free while actually am not.I'm giving myself to be lazy...then only I realized that I had waste my 2 nights.Haiz...I hate distractions,especially from someone I do not fond of. Screw him and myself for being so stupid.

Sometimes,seeking for my dreams is a mission-impossible.I always ended up clumsily fell down.It's freaking me out sometimes to become a failure person.Haiz...I had found my dreams and I will use all my strength to achieve them...But,dreams are always so far away,sometimes they made me suffocated in the midway when running towards them.But I know that I should continue no matter what happen.I have to continue.All I have to do is to breath-in and breath-out...then pick up my broken pieces of heart and go on without my real true feelings,like a robot.Y♥.

It's not me,it's you

I am suppose to be happy and cheerful today...I had watch the movie that I "lust" for 1week. But its you who made me sad.it's you who let me down.it's you who let my cheerful mood all gone.it's you who ruined my day.If it's that what you want and it's your expectation,then I will said that you have won.I hope you enjoy your victory.