✿ Thanksgiving?

Today is Thanksgiving. suppose,to celebrate with my family.
I got so much to be thankful for,those days.
but after I realize that I can't seems to get out of this depression,
what am I still left to be thankful for?
The unsound pain? The strong guilt? The unseen miserable?
I'm scared. really am scared.
The dark is waving at me,and I'm heading towards it.
Fear but did not pause.
My tears are uncontrollably,
unstoppable.

Wish to undo everything.Y.