Life of a mess of a Dreamer.

Some time ago I was tempted by myself to close down this little blog of mine.
But part of me inside is not willing.
I wrote out my life and all the physical sensation I felt inside me,
seriously praying that no one is to plagiarize my pieces.
However,for the shades of grey I am feeling right now after reading my past blog post,
it is certainly not and never is my intention to emofied myself or my readers.
(Of course, if there are any readers)

I felt bad enough if my blog has ever made someone sad, I apologized.
It might not be a wise decision to close down my blog,
knowing that some of my friends might still be interested in reading it.

Way back to last week,
I had my very best day with my bunch of friends and my lovely sister on Thursday.
Lil.Yvonne and I are so excited about the Genting Highland trip and few's birthday celebrations,
though there is some issues arose with the new room-mate.
In the end the bunch of us managed only to have fun on two themed-park games,
which is the Merry-go-round(I forced them to take it with me) and The Flying Elephant(This I did not forced them) due to heavy mist and rain,
we did enjoyed much though.








Dinner at the famous steamboat restaurant with all eight of them was indeed very pleasant and delightful,
and I have someone to send me back to Sierramas!
That day was a magical day.








Mamsie is going to Thailand for a few days.
My, how am I going to survive?
I still have a little sister to feed to.
I missed her already,
like a child misses her blanket.
She kept sharing her cooking tips to me,
but I swore to her I was fine.
Well, we will see.
A little bit of malnutrition in me for a few days won't be a biggie, I guess?

Right now,
I wish there is someone who can lift my feet off the ground and sing me a song.
Y.

If we hold on together.

I can show you the world,
Shining,Shimmering,Splendid,
Tell me,Princess,
When did you last let your heart decide~

I paused everything on my hand after hearing those lyrics.
I don't know why but it just hit me hard,
like someone smacked me hard across my face.
These past few weeks were been so pathetic for me,
I tried to find a place where I can hide,
I tried to run away from reality,
but now I just wanna go home.
I just wanna go home.

Have a really fun and warming night with family over Chilis.
How I missed all the moments when we were together,
I tried to remind myself that anything can happen anytime,
This moment is beyond perfect,
and I couldn't trust this feelings,
It's too good to be true,
I was afraid, fearing that something bad will happen,
but I was wrong,
I must have been blind,
They are just the same,as always,
which knocked me hard once,
I must have been crazy to have a thought like that.

I should really get some beauty sleep now,
no more excessive sleep tomorrow,
and no more spoilt food from tomorrow onwards.
I'm gonna treat myself well starts from tomorrow,
like a princess,
a real princess.

Someday,when I'm awfully sick or in deep lamento,
I guess I will sit by the window,
and figured everything out,
and maybe,
finally,
I'm turning back for home. :D
Y.

I just wanna have fun!!

My brother Alex is back in town today!! :D
He landed this morning,too bad I have to stuck in hostel for the week.
I can't wait to go back home.
Lil.Yvonne too is having a vacation at Penang with her bunch of friends.
She's probably snapping photos,tasting good food,buiding sand-castle,bbq-ing somewhere in that little town,
envy,envy,envy.
One thing in Penang,you should have a thick sunglasses to fight against the huge UV-ray. or you will be medium-rare or even fully-cooked.
With siblings all having long breaks,
how can I be not-tempted? :'(

Bought two private journals just now,
Oh my,they cost a lot.
Ask me in private if you want to know the price of each book,
I'm not gonna post it here to avoid being labeled as "super books-buyer".
I love them very very much!!
I'm too afraid to spoil them with my ugly handwriting.Lets hope not.


In the inside.



and I spotted this in Mid-valley just now.
Guess who's this?

I'm going crazy!!!!!!!


Exams coming up.
Patience, Yvette,
wait for another two weeks,
then you can rest and enjoy for awhile.
Grateful. :) xoxo,Y.

Truth Or Dare?

Playing truth or dare is just like flipping a coin,
you have decisions to make.
Either side you get,you will have the other side loss.

I always have problem in making decision.
I regretted about my decisions I made almost everytime.
It's pretty horrendous.
I guess that's the reason why I always follow people's choice.
I'm tired of sinking deep in huge disappointment.
Dropping Macro?
Hope I'd made a wise choice.

BTW,thanks Chin Wai for sending us back to hostel when outside was pouring heavy rain,
although you're not willing at first. :)

Grateful cause "Today's special dinner" is Mamsie's cooking.
God,I missed good food.
Thanks you mom! :D

and a very Happy Birthday to him!!
without him,I would still be walking on a miserable path instead of stepping towards my dreams of being an accountant.
Hope you have many returns on your birthday!! :)



Aoi Teshima.Google her.
She has the most beautiful voice I'd ever heard.
Y,xoxo.

Kiss The Morning Dew.♥

One thing I hate about starting of a new semester is that I had to deal with registering subjects problem.
There is always a problem waiting for me everytime I enroll my subject.
5 semester already,never once failed.
Seriously,I'm very disappointed in HUC registering system.
A letter required for extra subject-taking.
Oh come on,this has got to stop!!!
It completely ruin my day and did me extra long-walking and in the end that extra journey ends for nothing!

but still,
I see that life is beautiful.
Although I'm super busy this week,classes mostly ended around 6pm,
and hit the bed after my bath for a power nap,
I still get to get on the bus although people are pushing around,
I still get to see the baby-orange evening sky when I walked back,
I still have Lil.Yvonne waiting for me to come back everyday and give me a Big smile,
I still get phone calls from Mamsie to released my stress,
I still get to have breakfast with friends before class,
I still have hopes for my future,
I still have little things to laughed on everyday,
Everything is easy now,because I have everything,
and I really appreciated them.

From a distance,the world looks completely different.
try find simple things that make you smile,

Once you found that special thing,
You're flying without wings. :)
xoxo,Y♥.

Rhythm of My Heart ❤

See,see this?

Oh,I can't really sleep for the night!!
I can't describe how joyful I am!!
Credit to Xinchen againnnnn!!! :D
Postscript:Pardon my accent,I've been watching "My Fair Lady" for an hour!!



I'm very suprised that mom actually nodded her head when I asked if I can buy a book I wanted for so long! Thanks mom!! Love love love you BEST!!

Today indeed is a very happy day!!! La la la dee dum~~~
Thank God for everything!!

xoxo,Y☆.

♥I'm just NOT into you♥

A Big thanks for the rain during the evening!! and also thanks for the big hot sharply burning sun that shone on my skin every afternoon when I'm heading off to my class!! Thanks for make my day so excited+ beautiful+soaking+burning!!I'm just so NOT into you!!



Btw,mom is planning a trip to penang this coming June...yay!! On a vacation,how fun is that goin' to be?? and guess what?? My bro is coming back,ps: with full of gifts!! Cheers fot the Gifts!!Hope he won't buy me a tiger pad for me anymore...teehee...erm,excuse me,I'm your GIRLY sister...haha...I'm so not into any wild animals...It's a blast he is coming back,I miss him.Hope he hasn't changed much and don't think me and Y are small kiddos again.

Hope for the best in future,:)Girl have to be happy.♥xoxo

~William Arthur Ward
A cloudy day is no match for a sunny disposition.~

♥Lover of my Day♥

Shopping out with your very own mother was NEVER BORING!! It's was very fun indeed.Especially when you are not the one who swipe off the credit card!! Teehee...good mommy girl turns bad...whoops ♡

After a hearty breakfast with daddy+mommy+Y,am really full to think of anything else.When dad's car pull off the main entrance of MV,just like Cinderella went off for the ball^ ^...3 of us get down and walk in...there we go!!

　Okay,so I'm not really a shopaholic as someone thought I was.I bought things I needed and love so much(as if!) and I'm sure I had not waste on anything I had bought(atg least I thought so).We had done a little bit of window shopping first,then off mom went to Eclipse,Carlo Rino,The Mod House,Topshop and other as well,me and Y as the follower,just can stay aside and can't stop admiring all clothes's perfect lining.So Not Fair! T.T

Besides,don't you ever looked down at 3 ladies's appetite!!We had our huge lunch at enquirer kitchen!! Surprisingly, mom agree with everything we want!!haha...this feels so good!! We did update a lot and I started to miss my life at home. and guess what??Mom told us her Love Life when she was a youngster...wow.she was popular!!Guess I'm just the opposite of her... T.T Like mother like daughter,Screw that quote...We did enjoy ourselves and I love mom more than ever!! Cherished this moment SOOOO MUUUCH!!♡

Shopped for weapons for 2nd sem after that!!haha...bought some stat. and a few things and at night 3 of us made potatoes salad!!Yummy...I never knew I was such a Potatoes-Lover before!!haha...

　　Looks like I'm going to be a new Yvette after today...a fresh new start!!Gotta be toughen a bit(not being a crying baby anymore)haha...Girl had to turn to a brand new leaf!! Y.♥

Called Me A CRYING BABY+LOSER...

Moody,moody+moody……
Felt alone and stupid sometimes...life in college really exhaustic...sometimes felt like suffocating,struggling for breath...sometimes it's not fun as I thought...Girl like me are made by tears...after crying non-stop for hours,still felt like commit suicide...then will stare blankly at the wall,then fresh tears will stream down my cheeks from my stupid eyes again...sometimes I just wanna to hide under the cover and make the bad things all go away...I want to cuddle up to the corner of my bed and cry to death...but I always found that I'm still alive...(ridiculous,huh?)

Keep telling myself,FAILED is not the end of the world...but when I think of it,I will looked death and my nose started to run again...I have no confidence when come to academic...although I get 6A3B for my SPM (mom said I should proud of my results,keep telling me to be more confidence),I felt like I'm not good enough...I'm an ungrateful child...always have daddy+mommy to worried 'bout me...I hate myself for being not smart enough (unlike brother+y.sister)...I felt terrible...horrible...stupid...

After calling my mommy,tears was not fully controlled now...she didn't urged me to study,she just used her most calm voice to give me courages,told me not to give up,asked me to study hard, "You can do this Yvette,when you do it with FULL-HEART."...her voice,ever so touching and light...Felt like making my pillow flood again...

I don't wanna to be like this...I can't help myself...I can't seems to take it anymore,called me CRYING BABY+LOSER.Girl have to work hard and be confidence.Y.♥