New Year. New Me.

I have never thought everything will turn out to be so magical.
Not since I received that disappointed midnight text message.
My expectations fell,
my hopes are dashed,
and I have not expected my day to be turn out like this.
There were strong anger at first,
then turn to huge disappointment.
I've tried crying, to let all my disappointment flow, but nothing seems to work.
You shouldn't have break your promises,
and I swore to myself there were no friendship between us anymore.

I picked up my unpleasant feeling and went to Shogun with my family,
Both Lil.Yvonne and I are the birthday girl so we got to dine in for free!
I was really having a fun time there.
Daddy and Mamsie cheered me up, as always.
It's funny how mamsie tried to cheer us up by saying something really sweet,
I tell you, parents are the best.
They will never leave.












Everything turns magical after our lunch,
Alex called. Saying that he'll be back soon.
My party turned out amazingly,
and I had a very great time and it's the first time I countdown for a new year with my friends.
I felt enchanting.
It's a wonderful close-down for my 2011.

Well, let's hope my 2012 will be a marvelous year,
cause I can't wait to dashed off all my resolutions.


Kiss goodbye 2011,
Kiss hello 2012!
Happy New Year peeps! :)

You'll think of me.

Slowly, you embraced me.
With your strong arms as I paced forward.
I hold on my breath,
tried really hard not to picture you waving goodbye at me.
It was a quick hug,
short and simple,
safe and secure.
You made us think that you are worth the while,
for us to wait for the day you return.

To you, everything is beautiful.
You have no reason to be sad.
You seems cheerful everyday,
though there have been tough days.
Time seems to slow down whenever you're around.
Oh, how I wish you could stay longer,


same place,same target.

Saturday night,
Stood there and watched you gone sitting on the passenger side.
You seems to keep your emotions perfectly under control.
I can see your unwillingness,
It's written all over your face.
I looked away as you waved at us,
pretended to be caught on something,
blame it on my emotions inside,
I couldn't bring myself to meet your eyes,
I don't wanna break down,
I don't wanna to have this weird feeling.
In fact I felt a whole lot better when I turn myself away,
knowing that you will think of me when your're not with us.
I should never say goodbye because:
"Never say goodbye
because goodbye means going away
and going away means forgetting." - Peter pan


Well,
we will be alright if you were wondering.
Lonely is the word to describe Christmas without you,
When we were putting up the decoration for the Christmas tree every year,
it's sad to notice one less pair of hands.


The day before when you were coming back.

But I know you are coming back soon,
hopefully for 3 weeks in next January.
I promise I will buy you some gifts for your birthday this year.
If only you are here with us for Christmas.
I will give up everything,
if we could travel back the time when we were still in primary school.
but it's never possible.

so please,
do me a favor,
Don't grow further and further,
just try to stay the same.
Y.

Sweet August.

Clear crystal water drops,
hitting hard on the window,
making some sort of rhythm I couldn't hum,
cold fresh air sneaked in through the open window,
Sometimes we just love rainy days,
although weather usually made things worst.

I'm learning to play "Back To December" by Taylor Swift,
It's been awhile since I touched my piano,
but there's no turning back,
I'm gonna pick up my piano skills again from now on,
musics soothed everyone,
so do me,
it's about time,
practices are required.

Btw,I went swimming with Mamsie and Lil.Yvonne yesterday night.
Flashing back to those memories I once knew,
from learning how to swim from a coach when I was a lil girl,
to playing jaws with daddy in the deep blue pool I once feared.
I couldn't help but smiling when the moment I jumped into the pool.
The feeling was crazy and awesome,
with water surrounded me up to my neck-length.
I can still remember the swimming movement and styles.
but it's really tiring after I stopped for so many years.
More practices too,eh?

I was curious sometimes,
about the feeling of skinny dipping in the middle of the sea,
and my hair flying and dancing around with the warm ocean-breeze.
Let's hope there's no sharks!
well,some of my friend told me that there're no sharks in M'sia.
but I don't think I will swim in M'sia's ocean in my whole entire life also.

My weekends almost end,
that means time to return to college, *sigh*
Alex's returning from his mission next thursday,
at least I have something to keep me alive and expecting. :D
xoxo,Y.

If we hold on together.

I can show you the world,
Shining,Shimmering,Splendid,
Tell me,Princess,
When did you last let your heart decide~

I paused everything on my hand after hearing those lyrics.
I don't know why but it just hit me hard,
like someone smacked me hard across my face.
These past few weeks were been so pathetic for me,
I tried to find a place where I can hide,
I tried to run away from reality,
but now I just wanna go home.
I just wanna go home.

Have a really fun and warming night with family over Chilis.
How I missed all the moments when we were together,
I tried to remind myself that anything can happen anytime,
This moment is beyond perfect,
and I couldn't trust this feelings,
It's too good to be true,
I was afraid, fearing that something bad will happen,
but I was wrong,
I must have been blind,
They are just the same,as always,
which knocked me hard once,
I must have been crazy to have a thought like that.

I should really get some beauty sleep now,
no more excessive sleep tomorrow,
and no more spoilt food from tomorrow onwards.
I'm gonna treat myself well starts from tomorrow,
like a princess,
a real princess.

Someday,when I'm awfully sick or in deep lamento,
I guess I will sit by the window,
and figured everything out,
and maybe,
finally,
I'm turning back for home. :D
Y.

I just wanna have fun!!

My brother Alex is back in town today!! :D
He landed this morning,too bad I have to stuck in hostel for the week.
I can't wait to go back home.
Lil.Yvonne too is having a vacation at Penang with her bunch of friends.
She's probably snapping photos,tasting good food,buiding sand-castle,bbq-ing somewhere in that little town,
envy,envy,envy.
One thing in Penang,you should have a thick sunglasses to fight against the huge UV-ray. or you will be medium-rare or even fully-cooked.
With siblings all having long breaks,
how can I be not-tempted? :'(

Bought two private journals just now,
Oh my,they cost a lot.
Ask me in private if you want to know the price of each book,
I'm not gonna post it here to avoid being labeled as "super books-buyer".
I love them very very much!!
I'm too afraid to spoil them with my ugly handwriting.Lets hope not.


In the inside.



and I spotted this in Mid-valley just now.
Guess who's this?

I'm going crazy!!!!!!!


Exams coming up.
Patience, Yvette,
wait for another two weeks,
then you can rest and enjoy for awhile.
Grateful. :) xoxo,Y.

Te quiero

Speaking in Spanish can be so romantic.
One of these days...or should I say someday instead?
I would like to travel to Barcelona,one of the most populous city in Spain.
I remember once I watched this movie with my bro Alex.
"Vicky Cristina Barcelona".
One of the movie scene was shoot in Barcelona,and I'd my first time experience watching a sex scene with my brother.(which is kinda embarrassed)
or maybe I shouldn't be embarrassed,
I should have asked him some biological question.(evil laugh) :D

The scenery was very beautiful,and the story was very interesting.
I highly recommended to those who loves classic and romantic cities and also very open-minded.
The ending was kinda sad for me.
I think people should live the life that they cherished with no regret but,
maybe life is really that cruel.Who knows?

Postscript: For you outta there,plagiarize is a sin,an unforgiven sin. So please,be cautious when you plagiarize my words and copy my style. and I'd chosen to pretend that I didn't saw those words.

My 16-year old pic,havn't changed much right? :)

am heading to Genting Highland in a few hours!!!
My,my,I'm Soooooo exited!!!
Gonna had a lot of pics upload so stay tuned!!! :)
xoxox,Y.

From Raining to Shopping ♥

Outside.Rain is pouring.The scenery is quite grey.Wind breeze.Thunder roars.Tree's waving.What a scene.

Have a warming and loving shopping night with family ex.daddy.Although only mom bought her heels and make up.Three of us kids just went there like a bodyguard.Yvonne buried her head to her iphone almost the whole trip.I have no idea how she manages to kept her head down and focus on the screen when she is walking PS without bumping into anyone.Alex and I were talking,cling mom's hand sometimes and waiting.Wait,wait, and more waiting.At last mom bought her things and we were outta there.Pheww.♥

Went cold storage for groceries then.
Spotted:Alex is promoting women's pad to Y+mom.


He said that he is a pro salesman although he never took any training.What an annoy!Aha...We talk about a lot of things when we were driving home.Something about love,letters.Hate to know that someone is madly in love with Alex.I just so selfish that I don't want a new member to add in to my family.Screw me.

Finals and presentations are coming.I have to be tough and hardworking now.Call me a nerd.Bye movies+shopping,shall see you all in 2 weeks time.Ciao♥.Y.

♥Dinner at 5-stars restaurant

Weekends without Alex is kinda bored.He missed the great dinner at a five-stars restaurant on Saturday.Thanks to uncle Lim and Miss BK for treating us.The so-called brothers-and-sisters with my parents.Love five-stars so MUUCCHYYY!!!

　　　　　　　　　　Dad said I could take the revenge for Holland+Germany~♥
　　　　　　　　　　　　　
Love my dinner dress~♥

Cam-whoring with Y~♥




The dinner was super grateful.Although I have to sit with a doctor,but still,it did not change my mood.Thanks daddy for the big prawn and fish...love you...Good mood this week because Alex is coming back~yoohoo...cheers♥.Y.

♥Mission Impossible♥

I think I heard the thunder outside the window...is it going to rain??Hope not,because Alex is still on the plane...Dear Father Lord,please Bless him will have a safe and happy journey on the plane.

I am now resting aka writing my bloggie~♥ had been buried my head in the sea of acc format and questions...The words are driving me crazy...I hate myself these days for being free while actually am not.I'm giving myself to be lazy...then only I realized that I had waste my 2 nights.Haiz...I hate distractions,especially from someone I do not fond of. Screw him and myself for being so stupid.

Sometimes,seeking for my dreams is a mission-impossible.I always ended up clumsily fell down.It's freaking me out sometimes to become a failure person.Haiz...I had found my dreams and I will use all my strength to achieve them...But,dreams are always so far away,sometimes they made me suffocated in the midway when running towards them.But I know that I should continue no matter what happen.I have to continue.All I have to do is to breath-in and breath-out...then pick up my broken pieces of heart and go on without my real true feelings,like a robot.Y♥.