Life of a mess of a Dreamer.

Some time ago I was tempted by myself to close down this little blog of mine.
But part of me inside is not willing.
I wrote out my life and all the physical sensation I felt inside me,
seriously praying that no one is to plagiarize my pieces.
However,for the shades of grey I am feeling right now after reading my past blog post,
it is certainly not and never is my intention to emofied myself or my readers.
(Of course, if there are any readers)

I felt bad enough if my blog has ever made someone sad, I apologized.
It might not be a wise decision to close down my blog,
knowing that some of my friends might still be interested in reading it.

Way back to last week,
I had my very best day with my bunch of friends and my lovely sister on Thursday.
Lil.Yvonne and I are so excited about the Genting Highland trip and few's birthday celebrations,
though there is some issues arose with the new room-mate.
In the end the bunch of us managed only to have fun on two themed-park games,
which is the Merry-go-round(I forced them to take it with me) and The Flying Elephant(This I did not forced them) due to heavy mist and rain,
we did enjoyed much though.








Dinner at the famous steamboat restaurant with all eight of them was indeed very pleasant and delightful,
and I have someone to send me back to Sierramas!
That day was a magical day.








Mamsie is going to Thailand for a few days.
My, how am I going to survive?
I still have a little sister to feed to.
I missed her already,
like a child misses her blanket.
She kept sharing her cooking tips to me,
but I swore to her I was fine.
Well, we will see.
A little bit of malnutrition in me for a few days won't be a biggie, I guess?

Right now,
I wish there is someone who can lift my feet off the ground and sing me a song.
Y.

If we hold on together.

I can show you the world,
Shining,Shimmering,Splendid,
Tell me,Princess,
When did you last let your heart decide~

I paused everything on my hand after hearing those lyrics.
I don't know why but it just hit me hard,
like someone smacked me hard across my face.
These past few weeks were been so pathetic for me,
I tried to find a place where I can hide,
I tried to run away from reality,
but now I just wanna go home.
I just wanna go home.

Have a really fun and warming night with family over Chilis.
How I missed all the moments when we were together,
I tried to remind myself that anything can happen anytime,
This moment is beyond perfect,
and I couldn't trust this feelings,
It's too good to be true,
I was afraid, fearing that something bad will happen,
but I was wrong,
I must have been blind,
They are just the same,as always,
which knocked me hard once,
I must have been crazy to have a thought like that.

I should really get some beauty sleep now,
no more excessive sleep tomorrow,
and no more spoilt food from tomorrow onwards.
I'm gonna treat myself well starts from tomorrow,
like a princess,
a real princess.

Someday,when I'm awfully sick or in deep lamento,
I guess I will sit by the window,
and figured everything out,
and maybe,
finally,
I'm turning back for home. :D
Y.

I just wanna have fun!!

My brother Alex is back in town today!! :D
He landed this morning,too bad I have to stuck in hostel for the week.
I can't wait to go back home.
Lil.Yvonne too is having a vacation at Penang with her bunch of friends.
She's probably snapping photos,tasting good food,buiding sand-castle,bbq-ing somewhere in that little town,
envy,envy,envy.
One thing in Penang,you should have a thick sunglasses to fight against the huge UV-ray. or you will be medium-rare or even fully-cooked.
With siblings all having long breaks,
how can I be not-tempted? :'(

Bought two private journals just now,
Oh my,they cost a lot.
Ask me in private if you want to know the price of each book,
I'm not gonna post it here to avoid being labeled as "super books-buyer".
I love them very very much!!
I'm too afraid to spoil them with my ugly handwriting.Lets hope not.


In the inside.



and I spotted this in Mid-valley just now.
Guess who's this?

I'm going crazy!!!!!!!


Exams coming up.
Patience, Yvette,
wait for another two weeks,
then you can rest and enjoy for awhile.
Grateful. :) xoxo,Y.

Just When My Anger Started to Cry.

You win again,beautifully.
I lose,just like usual.
like a criminal,
like an offender,
like a sinner,
with massive guilt running inside my veins.

I put up my own defense,
I prepared my weapon,
but you've hurt me without even try,
with your sharpest words,
the battle didn't even start.

I'm the one who raise the white flag,every single time.
I'm the one who make trouble out of nothing.
I'm the one should apologize.
I smiled enough,
got freaky enough.
and I don't think I can take it anymore.
someone take me outta here,
everything is in a mess.

I tried to hide my fear,
that's why I'm being fussy,
I'm really angry with you,
but still this guilt inside me makes me suffocating,
Your ego-ness is so huge that I can't even breath.
and serve me right,
my tears can't hold when you turned your back to me,
I fell apart, crying inside me, crying hopelessly,
Now I'm all lonely as I can be.Y.

Turn around,Strike a pose

Accidentally,I'd finished my parts on econs assignment earlier than I think that's why I decided to come up here.
I'd changed my templates.
Nothing in particular,I just feel like changing it.
To the "NEW" me,maybe? (glass clinking)


Awana's Trip was superb!!!
I never enjoyed so much with daddy and mamsie in my life.
Playing arcade with your parents was kinda COOL,especially when you were my age.
I felt childish though,throwing tiny soft ball at the machine's screen. :)
and laughed so hard that my cheeks actually do hurts.
It's like a perfect vacation for me.
It's all in my sweet memories.♥







Then there goes HIS wedding.
At Concorde Hotel on a Sunday night.
The night was awesome.
and I had to call him "UNCLE" from now on.
I seriously wish they will be living happily ever after.
well,princes and princesses did that.



Hottest Monday ever and we were heading to mid valley.
7 of us makes quite a good team.
watched "THE ADJUSTMENT BUREAU"!!!
Emily Blunt is a sugar!!! Love her!!
I love the movie but not them.How sad.
Maybe I'm living in my own world,heh... :) Who knows?


"The F4"

Oh ya,I had a very nice dream last night.
Although it's very uncrystal clear,
at least I could see his face.
It's felt so nice to start dreaming about good things again. :)

From now on Yvette,you are going to stop hating yourself.
you are going to treat yourself well.
you are going to complete your dreams.
and you shall be throne to be the queen of your kingdom.
I can do that,at least I guess so.

xoxox,Y♥

♡ Jealousy,Oppsss... ♡

OK,I admit.My jealous streak is showing.

Someone's throwing a party tomorrow,I guess it's a big one,for her "sexy 18",and L.Yvonne got the invitation to it and I'm not.How cruel. :(
Just imagine people dressing up,dancing around,sipping champagne and fool around.
Oh my,I'm really getting jealous.

Instead of enjoying the party,I guess I will just slip into my jacket and head for the theater,and be a good daddy-girl.♡
Watching movie with my dad,who said my dad isn't cool?


Going back home made me think more clearly.
I found where I belong to.
Family & Home is where you can found back your fairytale and dreams.
Sugar Plum fairies,Glister Crown Princesses,but not Prince Charming.
Well,I guess I just have to pull away my worries. :) and
Home Sweet Home.Y ♥

Ain't not Daddy Like My Daddy !! :)

9th September 2010

Today is suppose to be a holiday.It's Raya Day.Classes still on in college which other colleges are on holidays.So unfair. :(
Having class at 8.Waking up at 7:08.I blamed L.Yv for not waking me up.She just shrugged and says: "Oh,I don't know that Ur class starts on 8.Usually you are still sleeping when I woke up."

I was totally blur when I reached my sit in Marketing class.I was in a deep sleeping mode until Ms Renee raised up her voice to kept us awake.Bah.

Brunch was superb!
Updated with Annabelle in Subway.Serious,we bumped into each other and I asked her to join me.We ended up talking so much that we don't want to leave Subway.
BTW,Subway made me smell like bread and coffee!! :(
Had Malaysian studies class after that.
Walked Jiachee back to hostel.

After daddy and mamsie fetching us,we went to Mid Valley.Have a heart-to-heart talk with mamsie in esquire kitchen.I found out that I'd grew older and more mature this year compared to last year.I'm glad.

Wanting to watch movie,we went for piranha.But we couldn't get a sit.So,we gone for Grown Ups.Wow,I love Adam Sandler man!He is the Hottest dad in US!Or maybe not,I should said Rufus Humphrey(Matthew Seetle) instead, Or maybe Ben Affleck? :)

Sushi afterward.


Then Home.
I was so tired I fell asleep and left the light on until mom came in on 1am and switch it off.She even on the fan for us.Oh,My,how I missed being pampered by Mommy.
Girl have fun today,Do ya? :)

10th September 2010

Book Fest fever is in KLCC,AGAIN!!Yeepeeeeey!! :)
I could still remember this early week,my friends all went there,WITHOUT ME!!Sad.I know I'm the one who rejected y'all,but sorry,I'm busy at that time. :)Always,the excuses.Ha-ha.

Good old dad,he LOVES us.He brought us to Suria this morning.Have breakfast in there.Superb yet crowded.
After that,dad bought us the entry tickets and we went in.Mom went shopping somewhere in the high-class shopping center,holding dad's credit cards.Ain't not daddy like my daddy!! Daddy is the BEST!!♥

Then,the frustrating part came.
Stucking in middle of nowhere in the super crowded book fest.I hate it!! *sobs*
People push and I push back.
Baskets slammed on my feet;Corner of someone's book clashing into my arms;Human stepping on each others foot,etc etc
Seriously,it's pain!!
Okay,I admit,I did gave a few people "tsk tsk" sound and irritated look but my head was spinning like crazy when I'm inside.And I especially hate someone's arm brushing against my arm!!Unless,a hot guy,maybe?
It's so ewwwwwww!!!
Well,maybe it wasn't that bad to stuck in here.
I bought two books.LOVE LOVE LOVE!! My LOVE is in the air now. :)
Trading Up & One Fifth Avenue!!





I love my books so so much!! Lunch at KFC on our way back.
Serious? Mom's at KFC!!
PS: Mom bought lots of stuff and she don't want me to know what have she bought.I wonder what would them be.But,I know that one of 'em is a huge black-golden handbag!Wonder how much it costs...Hmmmm...

Having fun today,what about y'all? (ignore my previous similar line,now I'm really asking you.) :)

xoxo,Y♥

It's not me,it's you

I am suppose to be happy and cheerful today...I had watch the movie that I "lust" for 1week. But its you who made me sad.it's you who let me down.it's you who let my cheerful mood all gone.it's you who ruined my day.If it's that what you want and it's your expectation,then I will said that you have won.I hope you enjoy your victory.