Thorny Roses.

The room have never seems this cold before.
I have never been so hurt.
Both humiliated and angry.
Believe me,
I had tried extremely hard not to scream.
My lips were frozen in great fear.
As you go on and on,
with your words like swords and razor blades,
I just shook my head and stared at you,
in disbelief.
in great despair.



As I look back,
way back way back to the moment I said I love you,
I was serious.
Were you? I wonder.
You brought me to tears every single time,
Even now.
I should have known,
that you are not the exception from any other guy out there.
No matter how hard I tried,
I can't seem to keep up to your pace.

Your words were so sharp,
and I had died a little bit inside.
My mistake,
I thought you are different from her.
I was wrong.
Past memories,
I'm all lost now.

I don't wanna feel this way.
Only 19, but tired. Very.
With nothing is fine,
I wanna get outta here.
It may hurt so much,
but I will try to hold on tight.
Y.

Cold as Stone.

Midnight.
In the small uncozy bathroom.
Shivering in pain,facing the narrow wall.
Hot water poured down from the shower head,hitting hard on my bare skin.
Covered my whole moisten skin around by hot compressed steam,I never felt so relief.
Closing my eyes,I think of everything.You,you,you and you.
Silent thigh pain kills me,makes me feel like crying.
but no tears came out.
No matter how hard I knitted my eyebrows in a frown.
No matter how hard I tried to moaned in pain.
No matter how hard I bit my lips.

Shocking pains are killing me.
and my heartbeat pulsed fast,yet weaken down whenever I'd tried to breath.

Cold air slapping on my warmed body when I open the door.
It hurts,like thousand of needles.
Shivered like mad,I left the bathroom.
and head for another enduring pain.

Hot water doesn't help.
not as I was hoping it will.

Goodnight,people.
Yvette.

Horror Night

The night is unkind.
Sharp Loud thunder brought all my thoughts back.
Gusty wind whistle in the dark,
Lightning that turns the sky white.
Storm is coming.

I watched a horror movie this morning-Jennifer's Body.
In my room,alone.
Okay,I admit,maybe it's not that scary but I just couldn't finish watching it.
I lifted my blanket near to my face so I can cover myself when I see bloody scenes.
Clearly,it's not working.I screamed anyway.
I just couldn't bring myself to finish the movie. *Sad+Terrified*

and...Good for me,
now the bloody scary scene keep repeating in my brain.
It's disgusting!!!
Someone please please kill me!!! *sobs*